Losing someone that you love is a tough thing. I have recently been going threw a break up with my now ex and its kind of crazy. The things you think about afterward the things you want to say and do and feel once again. I find myself having nightmares occasionally about him all sad and it just makes my resolve so much harder. Its not that i don’t deeply care about him but things i know just weren’t right. When you call someone pathetic, nieve, selfish and break up five times within three and a half years you need to start to let reality sink in. things were not normal, that was not how a relationship should be but it happened and the worst part is i still care. I know i shouldnt be even posting this on here because who knows who will read it but i need to vent a bit. I just miss something i lost and i need to remind myself of why i lost it and what the repercussions are. So many good things happen in life and you just have to let them. you don’t learn and grow if you don’t make mistakes and don’t let your heart get broken then and then swept off your feet again once in a while. life is full of challenges ones you need to accept and work with. otherwise whats the point.